KRUG

good news first.

i got the job i described in the previous post.  i’ll be starting on the 15th and i am extremely excited.  i’m going to be making more, doing what i enjoy, and learning a lot about interesting fields.

but the bad news seems to have more drama and seems to stick with me longer so my excitement about the job is overshadowed and belittled.

i am extremely frustrated with my friends out here.  i have been doing what i know to do to make friends and build relationships but it seems that nobody is taking the time to really get to know me.  i feel like everyone is making snap judgements and not giving me a chance to explain my decisions or even my faults.  and i can’t seem to get people to talk about why they keep doing this.  i can understand them having a problem to an extent.  but the way i deal with mine is to discuss them with the people that are involved.  i like to talk things out and come to an agreement or a middle ground of realization.  here, they just ignore me and i have to fight my way back in.

it’s getting to the point that i don’t even want to try anymore.  that if they can’t open their eyes to who i am or even forgive me for mistakes, then i would be better off not worrying about it.

and it’s not everyone out here.  actually it’s almost no one but at this moment it feels way bigger than that.

i may get to go see rissa sometime in the near future and she’ll be able to make me feel better.  i hope it works out because i’m already looking forward to it.

there is nothing that gets on my nerves more than when something is sold, promoted, or “praised” because involved in the product is a girl (or guy for that matter) that is pleasing to the eye. i hate it when they sell soda based on 4 girls dancing rather than convincing me that it tasted better than the rest. i cringe when i see beauty being used as a tool or as leverage to rise higher in the ranks of society. not that i’m against beauty or beautiful people. that’s not what i meant. i just wish that we would grow up enough to be able to buy products based on their worthiness and not on what hot model is advertising it or what celebrity says he uses it.

i won’t really rant about that now though. this post is actually designed to be a humorous one and the video will explain all. it’s kind of amazing when you think about what we can do with computers these days. all they really need to make a pop star is a hot body. that’s what the above paragraph was about. wouldn’t it be nice if the only “talent” we were exposed to was real talent? because you know it’s out there. nickel creek, or the 5 browns, or the many symphonies around the world, they exhibit years of practice and work at what they perform. and that’s just music. what about art or literature? so much gets passed off these days as “quality works” when anybody could have painted it (just look at the clayton state walls for some perfect examples). and it takes more to be a poem than rhyming. even all prose can’t be considered poetry. i feel that poetry should be classified as such when it evokes an emotion from the reader.

well, i guess i did rant. oh well. i hope you enjoy the video!